Heart Broken

Feel sooo down..

Thought this is the one... But not...

End up heart broken again.....

Help me God to go through all this.......

Complicated..

He doesn't want to let me go

I'm not ready to let him go either

But one day we have to

No other choice

But not now..plzzz not now...

Though my heart is breaking...

I'm just not ready yet.......

Marah n Sedih...I cried when listening to this song...

Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu (Repvblik)

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Kulewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

*Most Loyal Award?? What does that means? Ko perli aku ke ape? Be friends? U deleted me remember?? Me as ur no. 2 top friend?? I'm f***ing pissed!! Dammit! Lagu nie mmg utk ko...

Hmm..Love kah?

"Oo..Sy suka cite 'love is cinta'.. Walaupun cite die merepek, tp sedih..Cinta mereka kekal sampai mati.."

"Indahnye kalau dpt cinta mcm tu.."

"Tp tak seme org dpt.."

"Sy rela brcinta dgn org yg dh mati, andai cintanya hanya utk sy sorang.. Andai setianya hanya utk sy sorg..sy sggup.."

"Asalkn dia tahu sy cintakn dia, dan sebaliknya..ckup la bg sy..Lgpun dia xkan curang..sy ckp mcm tu sbb sy xpenah jmpa cinta yg dilahirkn utk sy.. xpenah.."


*I just dun get it....Knp ek?Ati aku dh kering ke ape? Coz all these things sounds crap to me.. hmm...

Lonely

The thing is..I Feel Soo Lonely..

Lonely..Coz Eowyn is not around..she has three weeks course..
Lonely..Coz JackJack is starting his new semester..bz with his class..
Lonely..Coz Miss September is already move to KD..Got a new job with famous songwriter..
Lonely..Coz Reyna J bz with her job n her J..
Lonely..Coz Mr.Sad is missing..
Lonely..Coz Lil Sister Who Loves Adam is far far away in Kch...
Lonely..Coz Tuan doesn't want to be my friend anymore...
Lonely..Coz Abg is so slow in replying sms..
But the ultimate loneliness is....
Coz My Yellow Man is not around with me anymore..

That's Why I'm So Lonely..

p/s: Hoping for Duta to accompany..Duta, sing for me plz...Or Raffi Ahmad..Raffi, cry for me plzz..;-p

BORING!!

Hari ni bosan sket laa..my partner is not on her desk..then ramai kat opis nie cuti arini...Maklumlah,cuti sekolah..

Semalam dah la tido agak lambat..dekat kul 2 laa...sms ngan 'somebody'..'Somebody' ni I just met him two weeks ago..Masa kursus kat Melaka..Sebenarnya we've met before cuma tak perasan each other je..Sampai lah masa kursus aritu,kitorang sama-sama joint as organizing committee..So, we got a chance to get to know each other..Hem..nice to talk to him..Banyak benda yang leh sembang ngan dia..Any topic..Thats what I like most about guys..;-)

Satu je masalah bila ber-sms dengan dia ni...Dia sangat SLOW membalas sms!! Seriously SLOW!!Maklumlah..orang tua..(oppss!!)

THE BREAKUP

Its been long time since the last time i made a post here..Bukan takat bersarang...Dah haunted dah! ehehe...Dah masuk December dah..next month its gonna be a new year..n tambah lagi usia kita..

Theres so many things happened this year..banyak sangat...full of thrills like roller coaster..ups n downs..But Alhamdulillah i manage to get through everything...

The biggest dugaan yang Allah bagi..THE BREAKUP..My 8 years relationship with my boyfriend has ended during the bulan Syawal..Bulan baik..I try my best to selamatkan our relationship..Tapi he doesnt want to help or has the same intention..So,why wasting the time..But honestly, I think the 8 years tu pun dah such a wasting time..Wasting money,wasting the energy..My mom wants me to talk to him n discuss..But the situation is much more complicated that it seems..I kindda 'digantung tak bertali'..He just walked away like that..Menghilangkan diri..He didn't picked up my calls or answered my sms..Tak tau nak cakap sakitnya macam mana...Dah laa banyak gile his stuff at my house...I want to get rid of it but i just dont have time to do it..Then I have to look at it every single day...And there still some of my stuff are with him..He just dont bother to return it..Maybe he has already throw it away.. Tak tau what is the best word to describe all this..First time I'm facing heart breaks camnie..

But, I'm proud of myself jugak laa..Pandai gile berlakon..hehe..depan orang buat cam takde pape berlaku je..Tuhan je yang tau apa ada dalam hati n dalam kepala ni..Try to be with my friends all the time..Nak nangis pun tak guna kan? Life Must Go On...I hold on that..

Once in awhile..

Starting last week there will be no weekends for me until the end of August.. A lot of events and programmes.. Tired... Dari dulu dah pikir nak tukar kerja.. but till now..i dunno why im still there.. My man said, im ruinning myself.. Asyik kena marah je.. Bila I membebel pasal my work n my stress, I kena balik dengan dia.. Bengang je~! But I understand. He just want the best for me.. If I susah dia pun rasa susah jugak.. Though tujuan I sebenarnya just utk meluahkan perasaan..I dun mean to make him do anything for me.. But he is just that type.. So, sebabkan tanak bergaduh I think I better shut my mouth until I got a better place...